Jesslin She'Nedra (jesslin) wrote,
Jesslin She'Nedra

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My gift, my ego

:P I finally dropped off the baby set I said I'd make for my coffee buddy. The hardest part was convincing myself that it was good enough to give, that even if it's not exactly what they were expecting it's still something they will like and use and appreciate. Eck. I have no problem selling my stuff - if you like it, you buy it and if you don't like you don't buy, simple as that. But I never feel like I've made a right choice in giving gifts. I'm so bad at readign people, how do I presume to read your mind? It's why I don't really give and really prefer not to receive gifts. I want to give you something, I just have no idea what; you give me something and I really want to return the sentiment, but ... Doesn't help that much of what I enjoy making isn't really useful, and I'm never sure how to say it's okay if you can't use whatever this is, just pass it on - just because I made it doesn't mean I expect you to use or want it, this isn't grade school and you're not my mommy, it's okay...

And yes, I'm aware that all I'm really doing is overthinking all of this. Doesn't stop me from cringing every time I imagine the disapointment you *must* be feeling for the dorky thing I just presumed to give to you, oh dear lord. ::rolls eyes:: Sometimes, though, I *do* remember that it's not all about me, and I manage to give random happiness with an open heart and a smile and it's all good. Just not quite this time.
Tags: angst, crafts, knitting
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