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Apr. 3rd, 2009

I need to get off my arse and see the dentist for the first time in too long - I finally noticed that my bottom wisdom teeth are canted forward instead of up. I doubt there's anything that can be done other than pull them, which I really prefer not to do, but I'll never know if I don't ask someone who knows more than I. It annoys me, because the upper ones grew in perfectly. Stupid teeth. Actually, can't argue too much - they're otherwise intact, and I know that's still rare in sugar-fed America. Only reason I care is that I don't want to accidentally chew through my own cheek :D

At some point I also need to do some serious mental prep work for Shibaricon. Half the time I don't want to go at all, as it seems like most of the people attending are 'in the scene', where I'm a self-admitted private hobbyist. I don't walk the walk or talk the talk, and I'm shy enough by nature with people I don't know that, especially in this very, erm, *physical* hobby, I feel very left out much of the time.  The classes are fine, it's the stuff around the classes that I'm trying to deal with. ::shrug::  I just need a button that says "Clueless newb; Play nice" or something.  *sigh* What's a girl gotta do to find a nice Top to play with? ;D  Plus, there will definitely be more people there this year that I know through other avenues, so I had better deal with my automatic reaction of "oh NOES! They will learn my durty little sekretz!" as much in advance as possible.  I don't care that I'm into bondage, I certainly don't care that you're into bondage, I just care that you *know* I'm into it.  :/  I'll blame prim-n-proper upbringing for this nonsensical feeling. I never claimed to make sense... 

So generally speaking, life continues.  This is good, as the alternative would leave me unable to bask in my angstiness -- and what other fun could I *possibly* have in life? ;D

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lylyan
Apr. 3rd, 2009 05:43 pm (UTC)
If you need a dentista I LOVE LOVE LOVE mine, which is weird enough to say about a dentist but it's true. He's up near Gurnee Mills -- Dr. Brucki, 847-855-8228.

Not gonna lie -- it doesn't hurt that he's funny and pretty hot.
jesslin
Apr. 3rd, 2009 07:48 pm (UTC)
Appreciated. They made us pick a dentist when I signed up with the company Dental Plan, and flechyr's seen him and says he's not evil. I'll keep your guy in mind if I feel the need to go further afield, though. You sure you want to share him? ;D
rowandoll
Apr. 3rd, 2009 05:52 pm (UTC)
Wait, you're into bondage? o_O
jesslin
Apr. 3rd, 2009 07:45 pm (UTC)
Shut up, you!! :P
aztecknight
Apr. 3rd, 2009 06:52 pm (UTC)
That prim and proper upbringing is such a pain.

And you do know that this is a public post? I at least do not see a friends lock on it.
jesslin
Apr. 3rd, 2009 07:45 pm (UTC)
I know. I'm more concerned about what my friends think of me than what the rest of the world thinks, really. If it was an option, I'd more likely lock this post *away* from my friends ;D

I never did claim to make sense. And I do apologize if the open posting means my friends don't wish to make a public reply, but... This post is very much part of me trying to break my conditioning.

Edited at 2009-04-03 08:01 pm (UTC)
rowanspeak
Apr. 3rd, 2009 07:32 pm (UTC)
I understand. I feel very out of place there, and it's even worse when you're single. But I still want to go. See you there mebbe?
flechyr
Apr. 3rd, 2009 08:41 pm (UTC)
I've somehow managed to get through most of it over the last few years, but I still understand it all too well, though, as you know, and believe me, I still have a ways to go, too.

Ya know, maybe those of us there who know each other, should try to get together at/during/after the con and just relax and chat about it all a bit.

After all, angst loves company? O_o

LOVE YOU!
elusivecallie
Apr. 3rd, 2009 11:29 pm (UTC)
If it turns out you hate your dentist i've got one in VH who's fabulous. just a few minutes from your place.
marielaf
Apr. 4th, 2009 04:04 am (UTC)
Shoulda known...yet *another* fiber art!
(running away, grinning)
queenserenity42
Apr. 6th, 2009 02:02 pm (UTC)
We should get her a t-shirt: "Plays with Thread."

Love ya, jesslin!!! ^_^
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