Jesslin She'Nedra (jesslin) wrote,
Jesslin She'Nedra

I'm not Sure what to make of this. I'm dreaming of Matt again. A wierd Brady Bunch wanna be dream that was mostly me trying to get answers as usual. Mostly about what really happened while he was away in the army. In the dream we appeared to each other as we were when we dated , but apparently to the rest of the world we were both children. It didn't really come up so I have no idea what that was about. Considering part of the dream Was me helping Matt crack into the Madison University server so he could get free Internet access -and he was supposedly 3 years old- I don't know what the dream parents were going to make of that. In the end I think I ''grew up" and asked dream dad if he knew what had happened. I didn't get much out of him, since I dont know much myself, so that was a bit disappointing.

In a way this was a really nice dream to have. I have some of that warm feeling that was the whole reason he and I were together in the first place, back when we were just honest close friends. It's been years and I still miss that from him. I know everything can't be happily ever after. Doesn't stop me from wanting it. Thing is, I wonder if he has any of that honest warmth himself right now. I really hope so. As annoying as I think he's become I really do want him to be happy.

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